I will always miss my dear friend. Some days more than others. Today is one of those real difficult days. One of those days that the warm sun is beating thru the chilled wind. Or maybe the stars just seem to shine a little brighter certain nights. These things today made me just ache in pain knowing one of my dearest friends has been taken away. And even it has been well over a year now since that early morning we all lost her, I still remember speaking over the phone with her like it seems was almost a week ago.

I feel sorry for those of you that come and write negative sentences about a very dear person. You obviously did not know Andrea Absolonova. At least not well enough to be continuously heart broken over her untimely death. For all those names that you give her based on your opinions because what she did might not of agreed with you, I have one thing too say. She was exactly opposite of every negative you try to pin on her. She was a very strong willed young woman that was just starting to find out who she was and who she wanted to be. And most of you have no idea.

It is strange to me that my strong love for Andrea has gotten even stronger since she has left this earth. I believe that some of you too have a stronger feeling for her. Even after more than a year. They have said that time heals all wounds. This is a false statement. It might put a band aid on a wound for a time but it seems to wear off occasionally reminding you of a loss.

In closing I just wanted to post here that I STILL love you Andrea. I miss you deeply. I love your family, your friends. I miss your voice, your accent, or your lack of english accent as you put it.

In Heaven when you meet me I will put my arms around you like I will never let go again, with tears running down my face. And then in your unselfish way ask me what is wrong, I will hold you even closer and just say I LOVE YOU.